The I is the Surpr'I'se.

One week towards Nijmegen,
things have changed.
It was about 3,5 months ago.
I don't understand still where I am going.
I only understand it a little when I recall the past.
Then I see so much has happened, but when I would look
at the moment myself, I wouldn't know.

When I don't see my baby-boy-toddler-in-a-sense for just
two days, he has tremendously changed, just by being him,
travelling through time. The same it is with us.
But the difference is that as an adult there is some consciousness,
which recalls the past, but a little one is not busy with that kind of stuff.
The directness of Being.

I am more advaita, which means: being one-with-time.
Not running ahead out of need, not staying behind out of fear.
I am just going, as life moves me from this to that,
showing me what it will become.

From being pregnant and alone, I saw many people click in
privately and then I saw many people click in professionally.
I still have the feeling that more people will click in professionally,
it is a sort of urge. But also the Zen-when-it-doesn't happen is useful.

I arrived to the part, where it is finally all about 'me', but who am I?
I am getting there, more and more, which also had to do with letting
go of the inauthentic 'I am going to do this and that' part, which ran
in front of me. I did everything, and got nowhere, than where I was,
getting somewhere and running away from who I was.

I am probably the ice-cap on Antartica, which is melting into water.
Finally soft and tender, after being hard.
At the same time soft doesn't mean softy.
I am not to be messed around with and learned to take my place and
to stand my ground with the pressure of others.
The I is what becomes when going. The I is squeezed out of that interaction.

The I is the Surpr'I'se.

Godaya