Deeper Sophistication

Today I woke up and I realised: I need more deepness.

The need comes from the inside out.

For a long time, the urge was about survival.
We needed to survive. It was necessary to make the outside world important.
I ignored the outside world for quite some while, as when having a baby, there is
a universe in a universe.

But then the outside world became important,
as we needed to survive. This took all of our energy and lust for life away.
Daily we were obsessed with work, getting to work, enough work,
feeling guilty about not working, feeling guilty about not working enough,
feeling guilty of.....

Then more work came along. There was a broader scope. Instead of speaking
to almost no one, I started to speak to everyone. At this moment I lead about
8 groups a week and keep on building out.

Then sometimes the 'Being' dropped in. Someone was sent on my path, technically,
who wanted to work deeper. This was the only deeper connection on the inside and
on the outside to feel again clicking in a great unknown world, which is beyond us.

No longer do I need any assistance before, during or after healing. It works directly
through me. But the moment comes, when it comes. I don't do anything, except for
being where I should be.

Then, the broad side of work. Off course it needs to become even broader, as
the working forms a strong antidote for all kinds of powers. Working helps
the Being overcome the non-Being, not only for me, but for others as well.

But now, I have reached a point, where I want to go deeper. I need a deeper sophistication,
where the outside world becomes supporting, but less important.

I don't know how to get there.
But I probably will, because otherwise, I didn't notice it before.

I provide yoga every day, but the stories which originate through or after it,
are the ones that count. Then live begins. And then I start to get interested in more.

This week I'll start to follow a teacher training in Meditation (Mindfulness, Vipassana,
Samsara and Zazen). It is something obligatory to follow to be registrated. I don't know
if it will make me go deeper. At the same time, the power of the group, will set things
into motion and probably awaken new stuff.

Then again.... did you know that my adsense experiment (the advertisements)
at my blog until now provided me 1 euro and 44 cents?

I guess that I am the cheapest channel for people to advertise.
I prostituted myself for 1 euro and 44 cents.

I guess that G and advertisement don't really go together.
Off course, I knew this at the beginning.
But at the same time, when one is surviving, all the normal outworld stuff
'is going on'. There is a subconscious layer doing this and that.

What if the normal world doesn't work?
Then you need a deeper sophistication.

Godaya