Whilst in the Silent Waters of God,
I have never worked this disciplined.
Building up structure,
for future stuff.
As long as this body is given to me,
I am fine-tuning it on God's Kundalini,
opening the Secrets of the Tantra,
structuring the Yoga in a way where God can reside
while it also fits the Old Scriptures
of the Ancient World
and the new people to come for all kinds of pleasures.
Something new, something real,
exactly balances and fine-tunes,
whatever there was, whatever there is,
and whatever there will be.
It just touches All in that split second.
That is the Now, which speaks.
I discipline my body, to make it suitable for God.
Cleansing it and making it stronger.
Besides daily Yoga, training the Martial Arts,
to fight the inner demons, which enter the filters.
I never knew that a Desert Body was so strong.
It is a mental game, by which you think it's not,
until the mental parts
will totally leave the body.
On one Level I am still,
Called even my best friends off for this month,
not wanting to know what is happening their world.
Rens trains me to be no longer involved with outside stuff,
with outside processes.
Only through that the direct knowing expands.
While on another Level in the Land of God,
there is you and I creating and working on Horizontal Structures,
for the Land of God.
Working hard in the unseen,
whether we know each other, or not.
Like unseen passengers, greeting each other with Eternal Grace,
cleansing out the knots of our inner mind.
Combining Yoga, Healing and the Land of God,
into a suitable plan,
I work thoroughly every day,
on this inside retreat,
there is no laziness involved here.
How beautiful the Desert Life can be,
the Desert Life, which is the Silent Waters.
I never knew that the Secret of this Inner Life
was about the not meeting and not speaking
and the not doing, whilst preparing everything.
Just you, your room, your windows and the endless sky.
Wondering about the Land of God.
Meeting each other in the blink of an eye.
Just one moment a day
and let the Mystery make it disappear
in a split of a second.
Godaya
maandag 9 december 2013
maandag 2 december 2013
G(r)owing on...
Hi All,
I hope you are doing fine.
I keep on g(r)owing on in the Land of God.
Yesterday was pretty unusual. I feel a little-bit like a punished child.
Self confident and at the same time insecure. It is both ways.
My child age is like the grown up can tell me what I am doing wrong, but I am not already giving in.
And that the Parent, in this case God, is lifting the shoulders, like: 'Ooow, if I would have known that this is raising children, grrr....I love them, but I also sometimes can put them behind the Wallpaper'. Maybe this is a Dutch Saying. Putting her behind the wall paper.
'Simba, you disappointed me!', 'Yes Dad'.
That kind of stuff.....
As at the same time Sexuality of God is playing, it might be even about the puber vs. the parent. I don't know. I was becoming rather recalcitrant lately, also towards Rens. I was taking a double role, playing politics. Feeling that the ground beneath my feet was disappearing. I was still holding on. I was speeching: 'I have a dream'. At the same time dark clouds were packing together. The filters of the new room weren't really working, and I have been sandwiched and caught up in horror. I guess it started around Saturday. I started to walk off track. I was a little bit naive. Everything is already written in the stars, I guess.
So when I was poisoned enough, God drew everything out of me yesterday. This was not nice, but I did pray for it, because some things were really amiss. I wasn't even aware about being punished after all. You are so caught up in the story. You only start to understand later. I stood in the kitchen, making myself a coffee. I prayed for a little bit more autonomy, as it was like I wasn't living my own life anymore. I was totally lived. I felt that other powers had taken over my life. I was captured. This was already starting Saturday and it became even worse on Sunday. I heard myself saying to Marvin: 'I am not here. Something, somebody has captured me'. As this comes in through many different factors, it is not one lead, through which you can say: 'That is it'. It comes from more sides, but it has the same theme. It doesn't really have to do with others. It has to do with g(r)owing on. The filters don't work and it finds you.
But, anyways, I was making my coffee, and then it was like God was going into my belly with a Physical Hand. God's Hand is really big. I fell onto the floor. He was grabbing something out of me, which was planted there on Saturday. It was so hurtful, like I was in an operation, where they forgot the narcose. On my knees I went to the toilet. My body got totally wet, and I really saw something in my belly moving. I don't want to sound here like the exorcist, but I sound here like the exorcist. It was like I saw an apple, or something alive in my belly and there was an Invisible Hand, wrenching it out of me. 'He there! Does someone have narcose in here????'. It was so hurtful. I didn't know whether I should be on the toilet or under the shower. I felt like a woman who just got raped. I wanted to lie in foetus, but my shower was too cold and small. It was really horrible. I was in totally panic and shock.
I ran back to my bedroom, grabbing the phone and then I ran back to the bathroom, as everything was leaving my body. I was mailing Rens. 'Help me'. But I guess that he already helped me, by operating me without the narcose, getting that thing out of me, and then I texted Marvin: 'You have to help me. I cannot talk right now. I cannot move myself'. He texted: 'Shall I call 112?'. In a split second: 'No!', you cannot explain this to 112.
This took one hour. Then I was able to walk myself into bed again, when Marvin came. The shock and panic had left my body. I was calm again, but I couldn't really talk. I was only bringing events lined back in the right perspective. I understood from A to Z.
I called off everyone who was willing to attend to the first night of the Yoga School. I felt so sorry to do this. Normally I am not sick. And in the meantime I was not sick anymore, so I felt guilty. With me, all sickness comes from really attacks in the unseen and then instantly the sickness manifests into my body, and as soon as the attacks are removed, then instantly I am healed. So that was not it. But I understood the bigger picture of what happened, and I really wanted to take some time to look at my flaws here, before running into the Yoga School. There is still a structural vulnerability in this room, which becomes a little bit more visible and real life. And I need to work on this vulnerability, make it stronger and from there I will work towards whatever must happen.
I know that the Yoga School must happen and I think I am going to start in the first week of January. Rens also said: 'See, where everything unfolds', like I was holding a package of different elements, building towards.... December would have worked on the power of the will, I am sure of it. But I want it to happen without the power of the will. I want it to happen naturally. That people are coming, because they feel called. Now, I feel that these same powers are against the Yoga School. And for now they have won. They don't want me to become self-sustainable, autonomous and themselves worthless. But I don't want to prove it to them out of will power. I want to show them how things are moving, when I don't do anything.
How about God? I ask God forgiveness for my sins, but at the same time I feel so loved. It felt like punishment, but actually God helped me. I was poisoned. It is too big to describe what is happening in the unseen. Some things are literally planted into you on purpose. Man is too small for that especially when the filters don't work. So I also must acknowledge my smallness here. Although I do not feel less loved, or less Divine. And at the same time, it gives me the courage and the power to struggle on. I want to become stronger and I want to overcome and win these powers. Although I hate these attacks, I want to become big enough to keep them away and to help others who are annoyed by this, without knowing. So in a way it is also didactical of God, what happens here and me being punished.
I almost feel like Harry Potter, but then not stimulating magical stuff, who goes to the years at school where things become serious and unveiled. Where enemies become big. I guess that exactly in this sentence lies the awe and wonder, which keep me attracted in the first place to these things that are happening. There is too much fuzz about it within me, too much excitement. This is probably one of the flaws that I need to face here. Something in me finds it too interesting, what is happening here. I always loved epics like Lord of the Ring and stuff. And it is really about destructing everything, seeing that all forms are unreal and that you are indeed very much walking around in the Boring Land of God, where Nothing Happens indeed. Where you have to embrace and love the emptiness until everybody forgets who you are and that you have walked into the desert at all.
I know....I know.... And at the same time I feel totally loved. I forgive myself this flaw. To be honest: Nothing really happens in that Land of God! I am looking for adventure. And through this punishment everything ended well indeed, as I was picked up by Marvin and cared for, while I was not really sick anymore but still was entitled to receive the Boons for sickness.
Godaya
I hope you are doing fine.
I keep on g(r)owing on in the Land of God.
Yesterday was pretty unusual. I feel a little-bit like a punished child.
Self confident and at the same time insecure. It is both ways.
My child age is like the grown up can tell me what I am doing wrong, but I am not already giving in.
And that the Parent, in this case God, is lifting the shoulders, like: 'Ooow, if I would have known that this is raising children, grrr....I love them, but I also sometimes can put them behind the Wallpaper'. Maybe this is a Dutch Saying. Putting her behind the wall paper.
'Simba, you disappointed me!', 'Yes Dad'.
That kind of stuff.....
As at the same time Sexuality of God is playing, it might be even about the puber vs. the parent. I don't know. I was becoming rather recalcitrant lately, also towards Rens. I was taking a double role, playing politics. Feeling that the ground beneath my feet was disappearing. I was still holding on. I was speeching: 'I have a dream'. At the same time dark clouds were packing together. The filters of the new room weren't really working, and I have been sandwiched and caught up in horror. I guess it started around Saturday. I started to walk off track. I was a little bit naive. Everything is already written in the stars, I guess.
So when I was poisoned enough, God drew everything out of me yesterday. This was not nice, but I did pray for it, because some things were really amiss. I wasn't even aware about being punished after all. You are so caught up in the story. You only start to understand later. I stood in the kitchen, making myself a coffee. I prayed for a little bit more autonomy, as it was like I wasn't living my own life anymore. I was totally lived. I felt that other powers had taken over my life. I was captured. This was already starting Saturday and it became even worse on Sunday. I heard myself saying to Marvin: 'I am not here. Something, somebody has captured me'. As this comes in through many different factors, it is not one lead, through which you can say: 'That is it'. It comes from more sides, but it has the same theme. It doesn't really have to do with others. It has to do with g(r)owing on. The filters don't work and it finds you.
But, anyways, I was making my coffee, and then it was like God was going into my belly with a Physical Hand. God's Hand is really big. I fell onto the floor. He was grabbing something out of me, which was planted there on Saturday. It was so hurtful, like I was in an operation, where they forgot the narcose. On my knees I went to the toilet. My body got totally wet, and I really saw something in my belly moving. I don't want to sound here like the exorcist, but I sound here like the exorcist. It was like I saw an apple, or something alive in my belly and there was an Invisible Hand, wrenching it out of me. 'He there! Does someone have narcose in here????'. It was so hurtful. I didn't know whether I should be on the toilet or under the shower. I felt like a woman who just got raped. I wanted to lie in foetus, but my shower was too cold and small. It was really horrible. I was in totally panic and shock.
I ran back to my bedroom, grabbing the phone and then I ran back to the bathroom, as everything was leaving my body. I was mailing Rens. 'Help me'. But I guess that he already helped me, by operating me without the narcose, getting that thing out of me, and then I texted Marvin: 'You have to help me. I cannot talk right now. I cannot move myself'. He texted: 'Shall I call 112?'. In a split second: 'No!', you cannot explain this to 112.
This took one hour. Then I was able to walk myself into bed again, when Marvin came. The shock and panic had left my body. I was calm again, but I couldn't really talk. I was only bringing events lined back in the right perspective. I understood from A to Z.
I called off everyone who was willing to attend to the first night of the Yoga School. I felt so sorry to do this. Normally I am not sick. And in the meantime I was not sick anymore, so I felt guilty. With me, all sickness comes from really attacks in the unseen and then instantly the sickness manifests into my body, and as soon as the attacks are removed, then instantly I am healed. So that was not it. But I understood the bigger picture of what happened, and I really wanted to take some time to look at my flaws here, before running into the Yoga School. There is still a structural vulnerability in this room, which becomes a little bit more visible and real life. And I need to work on this vulnerability, make it stronger and from there I will work towards whatever must happen.
I know that the Yoga School must happen and I think I am going to start in the first week of January. Rens also said: 'See, where everything unfolds', like I was holding a package of different elements, building towards.... December would have worked on the power of the will, I am sure of it. But I want it to happen without the power of the will. I want it to happen naturally. That people are coming, because they feel called. Now, I feel that these same powers are against the Yoga School. And for now they have won. They don't want me to become self-sustainable, autonomous and themselves worthless. But I don't want to prove it to them out of will power. I want to show them how things are moving, when I don't do anything.
How about God? I ask God forgiveness for my sins, but at the same time I feel so loved. It felt like punishment, but actually God helped me. I was poisoned. It is too big to describe what is happening in the unseen. Some things are literally planted into you on purpose. Man is too small for that especially when the filters don't work. So I also must acknowledge my smallness here. Although I do not feel less loved, or less Divine. And at the same time, it gives me the courage and the power to struggle on. I want to become stronger and I want to overcome and win these powers. Although I hate these attacks, I want to become big enough to keep them away and to help others who are annoyed by this, without knowing. So in a way it is also didactical of God, what happens here and me being punished.
I almost feel like Harry Potter, but then not stimulating magical stuff, who goes to the years at school where things become serious and unveiled. Where enemies become big. I guess that exactly in this sentence lies the awe and wonder, which keep me attracted in the first place to these things that are happening. There is too much fuzz about it within me, too much excitement. This is probably one of the flaws that I need to face here. Something in me finds it too interesting, what is happening here. I always loved epics like Lord of the Ring and stuff. And it is really about destructing everything, seeing that all forms are unreal and that you are indeed very much walking around in the Boring Land of God, where Nothing Happens indeed. Where you have to embrace and love the emptiness until everybody forgets who you are and that you have walked into the desert at all.
I know....I know.... And at the same time I feel totally loved. I forgive myself this flaw. To be honest: Nothing really happens in that Land of God! I am looking for adventure. And through this punishment everything ended well indeed, as I was picked up by Marvin and cared for, while I was not really sick anymore but still was entitled to receive the Boons for sickness.
Godaya
zondag 3 november 2013
About New Healing
Hi All,
Hope you are doing fine.
Walking on the line between Life and Death, I got into contact with New Healing again. Of course New Healing is always there. It is 'what I am and what I share' with the people. The difference only is, that a few years ago, I was giving it a working name, a concept and a site. And as you do so, people start asking: 'What is New Healing?', 'How can I learn it?', 'How does it help?'. Like you are talking about acupuncture or a new method.
And then you start doing Yoga, call it Godaya Yoga and that people might think: 'O, she stopped New Healing' and is into Yoga now. It on one hand has to do with restlessness. You are so curious about what comes next and you like it so much to express yourself into new ways and forms, that you leave the other form. Or it has to do with non-conceptual thinking. New Healing is just a name to name what takes place in general, all the time. You don't market it. You don't repeat it often. But basically off course I am sharing New Healing. But, because I don't market it consistently and change my web all the time, it doesn't stay with the people. And to be honest, I almost forget it myself.
But last week, I was training the Yoga Group and we were actually in the middle of a New Healing class. Healing channels were opened, so the energy of God could easily flow towards the people and indeed things on the physical, emotional and karmic level were taken away in a way that the people did recognize it. And it had something to do with the orcano. Not only in my life, but also in a greater collective. The themes of life and death (because this is what New Healing is about) came back into everyone's life. And God does the greatest amount of work.
The difference with New Healing, which I wrote about a few years ago and now, is that I was first literally getting New Healing from up above, drew it downwards and then transmitted it horizontally towards the client. Now it goes more directly. I don't have to order my taxi to get it and I don't have to take the bus to bring it. I am the cross roads, I am the route to take.
I lost New Healing out of sight as well, although I did it all the time. But it came back to me through synchronicities in my life, that I started to think about it again. It did have to do with the time that someone in my nearest circle was ill and without any hope, who is now again in the midst of life. Off course because of own willpower and fight against death. But it also works together with the path and the possibility of Vivication from God, the greater natural movement of God working through people, making different walks of life possible, without manipulation of the human will. I now see that as a member of a clan and family you want to help and you almost stand too close in the same story, to be off help to be objective. But New Healing did its work. It only is spread over a very long time, where also personal steps must be taken.
But then, years later, I saw another life/death story in my direct surrounding, also being involved with New Healing. It was not about: 'Now we do New Healing'. It doesn't work like that. There were other stories playing and therefore I felt that the person who was weak, must be helped and I did it. It was not meant to save that story, but it was meant to save another story. So there was a necessity without even a question, and I saw God at work. Now some time later, I wasn't even busy with it. And yesterday I saw the same thing happening. A Life track was wired into another connection and through this new connection, new things became possible. Off course also not without the free will of the person to go and fight for it.
I don't know if I say this correctly. It seems like New Healing is a co-creation of God and Human Being. It is not like God says: leave all up to me and let me heal it. Man must do effort. But God makes it possible, by wiring one impossibility into a new possibility. And as a bringer of New Healing, I am just the wirer, who brings the will of human being together with God's will. And then I totally step out of it. It is even thanks to my stepping out of things, that things will follow and originate. As long as you are obsessed by a certain conclusion or result, it doesn't work. It needs human time, it needs Divine time. It depends on the person involved, how soon or how late something might happen.
Stepping out then is the next conclusion. Just do your thing and step out of the triangle. I once wrote this before. Wire and step. It is almost a new step in 'Body Combat'. Wire and step, thunder and lightening. I stepped out of the triangle of my orginal family to make new life possible and I dived into a new adventure, I just Go, where I have to Go, always stepping out of triangles....
I start to learn and understand so much more about New Healing, but I also understand that the implications are too big to handle now for human beings. It takes more time in human lives to really understand and as soon as this is so, then the original sacrifice is already forgotten. And this is why God acts in silence and you should not make a big fuzz out of it. Off course man thinks, that it is human creation. And it is okay, because this God is not about acknowledgement or reward. He just wants to be healed and therefore heal Earth step by step, by reframing time lines and rewiring possibilities. Whatever...
I still do very much acknowledge the times when man was living close to nature. I do honor the works of Wim Hoff, who brings people back into nature. I do recognize the work of German Geneeskunde, where disease is totally embraced as the first step for healing. I do recognize the wholeness of the Super Yogis in the Himalayas. They all understood bits of how nature works, how duality in life must be transcended, by going through it. They all understood glimpes of God. At the same time God cannot be marketed....He/She just IS.
Godaya
Hope you are doing fine.
Walking on the line between Life and Death, I got into contact with New Healing again. Of course New Healing is always there. It is 'what I am and what I share' with the people. The difference only is, that a few years ago, I was giving it a working name, a concept and a site. And as you do so, people start asking: 'What is New Healing?', 'How can I learn it?', 'How does it help?'. Like you are talking about acupuncture or a new method.
And then you start doing Yoga, call it Godaya Yoga and that people might think: 'O, she stopped New Healing' and is into Yoga now. It on one hand has to do with restlessness. You are so curious about what comes next and you like it so much to express yourself into new ways and forms, that you leave the other form. Or it has to do with non-conceptual thinking. New Healing is just a name to name what takes place in general, all the time. You don't market it. You don't repeat it often. But basically off course I am sharing New Healing. But, because I don't market it consistently and change my web all the time, it doesn't stay with the people. And to be honest, I almost forget it myself.
But last week, I was training the Yoga Group and we were actually in the middle of a New Healing class. Healing channels were opened, so the energy of God could easily flow towards the people and indeed things on the physical, emotional and karmic level were taken away in a way that the people did recognize it. And it had something to do with the orcano. Not only in my life, but also in a greater collective. The themes of life and death (because this is what New Healing is about) came back into everyone's life. And God does the greatest amount of work.
The difference with New Healing, which I wrote about a few years ago and now, is that I was first literally getting New Healing from up above, drew it downwards and then transmitted it horizontally towards the client. Now it goes more directly. I don't have to order my taxi to get it and I don't have to take the bus to bring it. I am the cross roads, I am the route to take.
I lost New Healing out of sight as well, although I did it all the time. But it came back to me through synchronicities in my life, that I started to think about it again. It did have to do with the time that someone in my nearest circle was ill and without any hope, who is now again in the midst of life. Off course because of own willpower and fight against death. But it also works together with the path and the possibility of Vivication from God, the greater natural movement of God working through people, making different walks of life possible, without manipulation of the human will. I now see that as a member of a clan and family you want to help and you almost stand too close in the same story, to be off help to be objective. But New Healing did its work. It only is spread over a very long time, where also personal steps must be taken.
But then, years later, I saw another life/death story in my direct surrounding, also being involved with New Healing. It was not about: 'Now we do New Healing'. It doesn't work like that. There were other stories playing and therefore I felt that the person who was weak, must be helped and I did it. It was not meant to save that story, but it was meant to save another story. So there was a necessity without even a question, and I saw God at work. Now some time later, I wasn't even busy with it. And yesterday I saw the same thing happening. A Life track was wired into another connection and through this new connection, new things became possible. Off course also not without the free will of the person to go and fight for it.
I don't know if I say this correctly. It seems like New Healing is a co-creation of God and Human Being. It is not like God says: leave all up to me and let me heal it. Man must do effort. But God makes it possible, by wiring one impossibility into a new possibility. And as a bringer of New Healing, I am just the wirer, who brings the will of human being together with God's will. And then I totally step out of it. It is even thanks to my stepping out of things, that things will follow and originate. As long as you are obsessed by a certain conclusion or result, it doesn't work. It needs human time, it needs Divine time. It depends on the person involved, how soon or how late something might happen.
Stepping out then is the next conclusion. Just do your thing and step out of the triangle. I once wrote this before. Wire and step. It is almost a new step in 'Body Combat'. Wire and step, thunder and lightening. I stepped out of the triangle of my orginal family to make new life possible and I dived into a new adventure, I just Go, where I have to Go, always stepping out of triangles....
I start to learn and understand so much more about New Healing, but I also understand that the implications are too big to handle now for human beings. It takes more time in human lives to really understand and as soon as this is so, then the original sacrifice is already forgotten. And this is why God acts in silence and you should not make a big fuzz out of it. Off course man thinks, that it is human creation. And it is okay, because this God is not about acknowledgement or reward. He just wants to be healed and therefore heal Earth step by step, by reframing time lines and rewiring possibilities. Whatever...
I still do very much acknowledge the times when man was living close to nature. I do honor the works of Wim Hoff, who brings people back into nature. I do recognize the work of German Geneeskunde, where disease is totally embraced as the first step for healing. I do recognize the wholeness of the Super Yogis in the Himalayas. They all understood bits of how nature works, how duality in life must be transcended, by going through it. They all understood glimpes of God. At the same time God cannot be marketed....He/She just IS.
Godaya
zaterdag 28 september 2013
Fertile Ground
Hi All,
I am moving further in the Land of God. The not knowing becomes even bigger. It becomes a nice state to be in. It is a sort of flying, like you are floating a bit above the ground and let the wind sometimes push you a little forward. The answer my friend, is blowing in the wind. The answer is blowing in the wind.
Fertile ground comes from within. The impuls of acting must come from within. You don't know where to go, until you do. The invitation is to stop seeking around you, but to feel within. Most of the times you don't know and then the ground is not fertile. And suddenly you know and you start moving forward. Patience is needed. And patience is oftentimes rewarded.
I won a trip to the States. First this is outside of you. But you like the idea, so you start shouting it and share it with the people you love. Then you leave it for a while, because you realize that an idea is something different than an action. Actually doing it, is about 'experiencing' it. The experience is something different than daydreaming about how things should be. You dig further. There is also daily life. It must fit into daily life. Daily circumstances show that it doesn't fit, unless you force things.
You leave it alone for a while. You dig further into your daily life stuff. Things go well. Things go not well. It is almost like the idea about the States doesn't exist, like you made it up in a dream. You leave it and you dig further. In the meantime time has past. Then you receive a mail, days later, about 'how about....'. Something starts to move, to swift again. Something is brought into action. As you used the in between days to dig into fertile ground, preparations, which were about totally different things helped to make the ground fertile.
Also I wanted to go alone, but I rather wanted to go together. So, I also waited to make this happen and see whether this was possible. In the beginning this seemed not to be possible. All circumstances seemed to work against the natural flow. We waited, and we digged into the ground for new fertile ground and after a while you see that circumstances have changed, so that the impuls of going also meets the point of another person going. It is beyond will power. It is more according to the origination of the truth. We both know: What should happen, will happen and we are acceptant towards it. And what should not happen will not happen. And we also accept this.
So, I know now exactly when I am going. Time will tell if I go alone, or that we go the two of us. This is how the truth reveals and it is so different than I was used to manage my things. This is how it works in the Land of God. You work on your own fertile ground. The other follows or not....
Nice Weekend,
Godaya
I am moving further in the Land of God. The not knowing becomes even bigger. It becomes a nice state to be in. It is a sort of flying, like you are floating a bit above the ground and let the wind sometimes push you a little forward. The answer my friend, is blowing in the wind. The answer is blowing in the wind.
Fertile ground comes from within. The impuls of acting must come from within. You don't know where to go, until you do. The invitation is to stop seeking around you, but to feel within. Most of the times you don't know and then the ground is not fertile. And suddenly you know and you start moving forward. Patience is needed. And patience is oftentimes rewarded.
I won a trip to the States. First this is outside of you. But you like the idea, so you start shouting it and share it with the people you love. Then you leave it for a while, because you realize that an idea is something different than an action. Actually doing it, is about 'experiencing' it. The experience is something different than daydreaming about how things should be. You dig further. There is also daily life. It must fit into daily life. Daily circumstances show that it doesn't fit, unless you force things.
You leave it alone for a while. You dig further into your daily life stuff. Things go well. Things go not well. It is almost like the idea about the States doesn't exist, like you made it up in a dream. You leave it and you dig further. In the meantime time has past. Then you receive a mail, days later, about 'how about....'. Something starts to move, to swift again. Something is brought into action. As you used the in between days to dig into fertile ground, preparations, which were about totally different things helped to make the ground fertile.
Also I wanted to go alone, but I rather wanted to go together. So, I also waited to make this happen and see whether this was possible. In the beginning this seemed not to be possible. All circumstances seemed to work against the natural flow. We waited, and we digged into the ground for new fertile ground and after a while you see that circumstances have changed, so that the impuls of going also meets the point of another person going. It is beyond will power. It is more according to the origination of the truth. We both know: What should happen, will happen and we are acceptant towards it. And what should not happen will not happen. And we also accept this.
So, I know now exactly when I am going. Time will tell if I go alone, or that we go the two of us. This is how the truth reveals and it is so different than I was used to manage my things. This is how it works in the Land of God. You work on your own fertile ground. The other follows or not....
Nice Weekend,
Godaya
woensdag 11 september 2013
God goes horizontal
Hi All,
Today I wake up in a new vibe. I have to figure myself out. Yesterday eve I was at Rens. The stormy and rainy weather couldn't blow me away. Another season is starting... I don't want to know. I always want the Sun and otherwise I am going to chase for it.
The healing was with my neck open. My head was pulled backwards. And it took a long time, so I was afraid that my head was going to fall off backwards. I now understand that this is a healing for a primal issue. The primal issue has to do with cultural integration. I wrote not long ago, but you also probably know this, that God is not my biggest issue. My vertical alignment is not the problem and keeps on growing beyond the stars. About a year ago, a very advanced friend of me told me I was building a structure, which was already beyond the Cosmos. That is not my problem. My problem is 'how' to integrate this into the real world.
The primal problem wasn't at this point even me, nor my family structures, which are rather bizar and challenging. It was about cultural integration. The fact that I am writing English and want to bring God towards the 'World', instead of sharing things with rensing people, is in my view an enthusiastic universal step beyond borders, as I never knew of borders. But God always sees things the other way around: it is not a universal challenge, but a pathology, a primal problem.... of non-cultural integration. I probably started to build my structure vertically as I couldn't find common ground horizontally. This had nothing to do with God, but with a cultural des-integration.
What I always consider stupid in regards to psychology, is that a problem is not considered as a chance. What I always consider honest in regards to psychology, is that evasions away from how it is are brought back into something, which can be fixed... Let's see it and...and.... And let's not deny the problem, which need to be fixed, but let's also see it as a chance to expand and go beyond borders? How about that?
Anyways: I hope that God can help my verticality into a horizontal modus. So that in the end I'll sing the Wilhelmus von Nassau, and buy tulips for my grandmother (although she passed away for a long time). Let's start first with my book. I wrote a really Dutch book: 'Wie renst er mee in het Land van God?', which I am allowed to publish.... Let's work on that for my Dutch roots.... For the not Dutch-readers, you can place that title in the google translate ;).
Have a nice day!
Godaya
Today I wake up in a new vibe. I have to figure myself out. Yesterday eve I was at Rens. The stormy and rainy weather couldn't blow me away. Another season is starting... I don't want to know. I always want the Sun and otherwise I am going to chase for it.
The healing was with my neck open. My head was pulled backwards. And it took a long time, so I was afraid that my head was going to fall off backwards. I now understand that this is a healing for a primal issue. The primal issue has to do with cultural integration. I wrote not long ago, but you also probably know this, that God is not my biggest issue. My vertical alignment is not the problem and keeps on growing beyond the stars. About a year ago, a very advanced friend of me told me I was building a structure, which was already beyond the Cosmos. That is not my problem. My problem is 'how' to integrate this into the real world.
The primal problem wasn't at this point even me, nor my family structures, which are rather bizar and challenging. It was about cultural integration. The fact that I am writing English and want to bring God towards the 'World', instead of sharing things with rensing people, is in my view an enthusiastic universal step beyond borders, as I never knew of borders. But God always sees things the other way around: it is not a universal challenge, but a pathology, a primal problem.... of non-cultural integration. I probably started to build my structure vertically as I couldn't find common ground horizontally. This had nothing to do with God, but with a cultural des-integration.
What I always consider stupid in regards to psychology, is that a problem is not considered as a chance. What I always consider honest in regards to psychology, is that evasions away from how it is are brought back into something, which can be fixed... Let's see it and...and.... And let's not deny the problem, which need to be fixed, but let's also see it as a chance to expand and go beyond borders? How about that?
Anyways: I hope that God can help my verticality into a horizontal modus. So that in the end I'll sing the Wilhelmus von Nassau, and buy tulips for my grandmother (although she passed away for a long time). Let's start first with my book. I wrote a really Dutch book: 'Wie renst er mee in het Land van God?', which I am allowed to publish.... Let's work on that for my Dutch roots.... For the not Dutch-readers, you can place that title in the google translate ;).
Have a nice day!
Godaya
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