The Open Land

The not knowing becomes stronger, and therefore the direct knowing becomes stronger.
The idea is knowing directly and then let it dissolve into not knowing.
It is a dance through time. You must keep on moving.

Before you know, the knowing becomes stronger than the not knowing and then a story
originates from a story, while it is about no story and no images at all.

The not knowing is higher than the knowing.
Therefore from the not knowing, one knows, but as soon as the other asks:
'How do you know', you are not supposed to know.

You must then leave it up to God.
Knowing must be without any conclusion, as a conclusion, tightens the room of infinite
possibility to arise.
Knowing must be without any conclusion, as a conclusion, tightens the room of infinite
space into morality.

The function of the Seer is to fall together with the moment and then leave.
By the leaving it happens.
That is also why Jesus had to leave.

The not knowing is the most beautiful conclusion to make out of something.
It is a must be.
It must be it.
It must be without the knowing.

What if you know and you cannot pretend to don't know?
Then, either leave it, as it must not become of interest.
Or, stay, but make yourself look into it from an even more complete situation,
by stepping out of the comfort-zone, into the unknown and see what happens.

Don't stop moving.
When you know, you stop moving.
You must keep on moving.




















Godaya

Adam and Eve on Ice

Guess I am in a new space, and that I still cannot believe the space that I am in.

Can't even recall what all happened.
The unknowing, not knowing, no past, only future starts to reign here.

Just entered it.
Guess it is amazing.
But unbelievable.

The weird thing is, it is so simple, so light, so delicate.
Is this God?

Always had those amazing images about how it would be.
And in the end, it is so simple, so light, so delicate.

It is innocent bliss.
Can't believe I have reached it.
Can't believe I may stay here.

Can't believe I do exist.

Paradise on Earth is indeed possible.
Don't ask me how I got there.
It took me about many books.

Life is a joke.
I indeed do understand why Adam and Eve had to leave Paradise.
It was so normal, so unreal, that they had to learn the other truth to recall
it was real.

I now know that Paradise is an Earthly Opportunity.

Don't ask me how I got here.
It took me many books to do so,

Godaya in Paradise.

Beauty and bliss.

Pep-Talk

Somewhere in the Land of God, I am.
I am hiding for myself.

Maybe I like it too much here.
Maybe I don't wanna go down.

Maybe the no man's land is soothing me and nourishing me.
Maybe, maybe.

I learned to un-rush.
I feel like a baby, like I don't want to go.
It's so comfortable in here.

The Reading is so recognizable for where I am.
There are so many ideas.
There is so much knowledge.
There is so much ability.
I almost have to cry.

Nowadays, I see, hear so much people who invented the wheel.
But I have the wheel.
And I don't use it.
Yes, I use it on the unknown.

God is comforting me. I don't have to rush.
I can stay here for a while.
If people would meet me and ask what it is that I am doing,
I almost can't explain.

There is so much ability. There is so much creation. There is so much healing. What if you would
invent chocolate, which could heal cancer? What if you could invent water, which could heal fears.
What if your water would really transmit the Love of God? What if you would invent the dreamcatchers, which would surely protect your house? What if you would make perfume, which would cleanse your aura? What if you would bake bread, which would feed you with the power of God? What if you would produce a Magazine, where the words would heal your mind? What if you would make a hospital for sick and ill animals?

What if? What if?
These ideas are so close to me.
I know I can realize them all.
Still I am sitting on my bed again, writing this blog.

I now do understand more of myself.
Most of the people are willing to do that, but can't.
I can do that, but won't.
And I don't know why this is.

Maybe deep within me, I don't believe in myself.
It doesn't matter what the assignment is: within a few months I learned myself to cook and bake.
If I have to exploit a mine tomorrow, I'll make it work within a few months.
I can make everything out of nothing.
This is not meant to be arrogant, but this is what life has shown me so far.
I was one of the first women, that lied beneath the ice with the Iceman,
just within two days, while never have been really in snow before.
Through this little experience I now also know how to set and reset your cells and heal physical
illness from within and as my energy pervades the bodies of many, I also am able to reset it in others.
Moreover, I not only know it, but I also do have the didactical way to explain this for people,
so that an idea doesn't have to die in vain, because you knew it, but couldn't talk about it.

I talked about this with Rens.
He said: 'the most beautiful thing would be, that you healed it, and didn't know you did it'.
So the discussion wasn't even about: 'can you do it or not', but about 'how to do it, or not'.
So I really need to reach this point.
The point that it doesn't matter that it works like this. That you have anything to do with it.

Within me there is a part, which is afraid of dying, without having all this shared with the people,
or executed. So this is one of the frustrations.
The second thing, that I am afraid of, is the naivety of man. There is still a part within man, that needs to die. Man now feels comfortable and is not willing to do this voluntarily.
And if one is, because he sees/feels/believes it is working, then the outer world is not willing to let this happen, as everyone does have an own interest in people being ill.
We now do yell maybe at the pharmaceutic world, but it is not only that. I am also talking about family members here in general, or nurses or doctors, if you would really look deeply in the believe system of the 'helping' and 'supporting' part, really really deeply, then most of the time people don't want or like change. So much help is based on making things better, while beneath the surface, it is all about control. I know this, because I have been there myself.
The third thing, that I am afraid of, is that I cannot be social within who I am. The messenger is oftentimes the one that puts the impression and makes people do something or do nothing. To act or
to non act. Here I am getting to a point with myself.

I just cannot be my freaking self in this world.
I just cannot be my freaking self in this world.
I need more openness about who I am.
But the outside world doesn't let me be.
Because, when I am myself, then the rest of the world either

-ignores me.
-resents me.
-declines me.
-is afraid of me.

As this still is so, other powers are still in charge.

Why?

It was already read, that before I would let the light shine through me for always, and do what I came here to do, and therefore necessarily would be visible, that I would test these things within human connections.

I guess that the world is not ready. And I guess that I am not ready to stand in my authority.

Therefore.

So, today, let's clean again and be no-one.

Godaya

Incredible Indeed!

Happy Mothers-day!

At this moment, I keep on walking in the Land of God.
Yesterday, after a sort of hefty day with Marvin, as all things started to shift again within the common fields, I got onto a new theme.

Really, during the weekdays, all kind of abnormal things happen.
But during the weekends also all kind of abnormal things happen.

As we visited someone in the hospital, people started to be a little curious about what it was,
what I did (I guess, for a living). This is one of the most normal questions in Holland, just as ordinary
as asking or talking about the weather.

And I find it so impossible to answer this questions straight and directly!
I figure out:
-Am I here to open up and is this process about opening up and then handle the conscious and unconscious reactions?
-Am I here to be silent and hide myself, to stay as much in the comfortzone as possible and pretend I only clean and bake cupcakes? Like I am a mother without children (yet)...

I am not sure yet. Sometimes I open up, if I have had it with the cup-cake talk. But then I feel so exposed! And then all of a sudden the distance between where you are and where the people are is so visible and sensible, that I wonder....

Who is to overcome this un-comfortzone? Do the people need to walk and do I need to draw people in it? Or, do I have to keep on walking, wait another 10 years, until life and the world is more ready, so that people will indeed understand?

I explained a bit, that baking cakes, was only a metaphor for what I am indeed doing. The Godayerie is a collective name of all things that I am doing to share God amongst people. Whether this will be about buying perfume, eating cakes, cleaning houses, produce music, it doesn't matter. It is a sort of labaratory where all is possible and all can be expirimented. God Divides, Comes along.

They liked the 'idea'.

I was not out in the open about God. I said: 'I am spreading energy, let's call it love, in all kinds of forms'. -> people do understand, but maybe this is too general. Maybe I must call it 'New Love'.

But also, sometimes people ask about my name. Where does it come from? To avoid weird situations, I say: 'I come from Korea, but I am Dutch and have Dutch Parents'. But then this ain't a real answer on the question. The real answer is though: 'Godaya comes from the Land of God'.

Do you understand, what would happen, if I would state this, when people are just for fun asking me about cupcakes and stuff? (I don't make cup-cakes -> I make Cho-Godayas, Godayons, Panaras, Sweet Mar-Go's and Little Junipers).

'Then who gave you that name? And where lies the Land of God?'
How to explain 'this', without losing elegance and credibility?
It is indeed 'incredible'.

It sounds like a concept, but what if this whole thing is more than a phantasy?
Am I then not meeting exactly the same impossible impossibility as our J.C. did a long time ago?
This was a little bit the answer on Marvin's question, why I was a little nervous, while answering
the persons in the hospital. I now see, that the inside world is indeed different than the outside world.
But hey, ain't this the adventure and mission, I was born and impatient for?

I trust then on God, that He Will Fix this impossible bridge.
God Says: 'this can only be fixed in time'.
You know God: I finally feel a lot of patience to get this bridge fixed.
Somehow it is also very safe for me to cocoon in No-mansland, in the enormous Desert of God.

Today God has brought a (for me) big group together, to taste the High Tea with G.
What a marvelous day!

Godaya