To be Continued...

It's been a while since I wrote.
The reason why..?

I am going through different phases.
More glimpses of the real me come to surface.
They are quite fragile.
They also involve my work.

Since a week or something,
I am re-united with more happiness.
I say re-united, because I was always guided with a basic positivity.
A basic trust.

Then I lost it for some time.
I didn't recognise me in what I had become.
But now the positivity comes back,
from the inside out.

The heart opens really every once in a while.
Sometimes it closes and I keep it for myself.

In work a lot is changing. I guess in a month or more,
I am doing different stuff....
Little glimpses already show...
It's the same same, but then by far more authentic.

Since some time, I am fighting expectations of the outside world.
I don't want to be part of it.
But I know, that I will only find happiness and salvation,
when this outside world is included.

Feeling the natural flow, despite all the outside world expectations.
Trusting on a deeper walk of life, without instant reaction.

At this moment, I am more heading towards the Buddha,
than towards....I don't know if it is home. But it was a missing link.

To be Continued...

Godaya

Workshops

For Serious Request there will be two donation based workshops at Yoga Club Mijdrecht
at December 12th and December 13th. The donations will be offered totally to 'Het Rode Kruis'.

December 12th: Meditation, Mindfulness and Relaxation by Godaya at 10.30-12.00.
December 13th: Yin Yoga by Marloes Winkel at 12.30-14.00.

Hope to see you there. More information, visit my website: www.godaya.me

To Godaya XI

Dear Godaya,

For all people, who tend to give up,

Tonny:

From the Talmud

You can be the first note in a song,

so that all boundaries are gone,

don't be afraid

even if the note is false

You can be the first spark for a fire

which melts all weapons into ploughs

don't be afraid

even if you are wounded by the wind

You can be the first grain in the field

which will fill all hands with bread

don't be afraid

even if the land is full of rocks

You can be the first drop of a Source

which sings songs of life in the desert

don't be afraid

even when the cloud is still silent

You can be the first step for a dance

which leads all feet towards Him

don't be afraid

even if your foot is stumbling 

And then this...

When you have believed in people

which let you down: keep on believing.

When you hoped for a miracle,

which did not happen: keep on hoping.

When you wanted to leave a trace of love,

but were despised, even continue to love.

When you dreamed and then awaken,

keep on dreaming until the morning!

Ine's Book

Ine's book is worth seeing/buying. Over 365 pics and illustrations. See link
Godaya

http://www.boekenbestellen.nl/boek/let-the-picture-get-you-by-ine/15465http://www.boekenbestellen.nl/boek/let-the-picture-get-you-by-ine/15465

To Godaya X

 

Dear Godaya,

I am curious about you answer.
I don't like it that I visit your site to see it empty again.
Is that the case with more people? Being curious... or is it my dependency? of ...?
Do I wait too much for people? Waiting? Why do I wait? Is it because I don't wanna go? Is it, because I should go myself.... or is it time that others will follow me? That I show people what's inside of me?
That I don't identify with you, with someone else, but...go!?
Why does it scare me so much?
Not waiting for someone to follow. Go!? Saying 'yes' to whatever calls you.
It's so scary.

Tonny

 

Photo's by Ine XI

To Godaya IV

Dear Godaya,

I regularly watch your blog, but it keeps on being empty.

It is hard to see it empty, as you want it to be filled in. I also have the feeling that I shouldn't fill this.
I also don't know what to write.

Except for saying: 'I don't know'. Maybe therefore we got words to pray. As a ritual to not disappear in emptiness. Perhaps the church intended to introduce prayers, to not disappear, as a protection. I don't know.
They do indeed know it on television and in the papers.
They at least think so, as they talk a lot and the papers are fully filled with words.
I don't know if this makes any sense.

Godaya, how are you?

Tonny.