The Place where you Belong

Today, I visited a house.
It was a beautiful space, where the people offered me a place to give my yoga/meditation course.
It had a vibe, which reminded me of my own home, where I lived for many years
and which I left, once it was not my home anymore.
I felt welcome and I am gonna feel...

A while ago, I asked for a space somewhere else.
I was rejected, because one of the people, who worked there was teaching in the same area.
I was a bit astound, but couldn't find words...

It reminded me of a thing, long time ago.
I asked him: do you mind helping the same people as you do? Fishing in the same water?
He said: I don't know of any water (or something like that). He meant probably: there is no competition.

Feeling welcome is one of those themes that come and go in my life.
I work in soft groups: I feel welcome.
I work in artistic groups: I feel welcome.
I work in competitive groups: I don't feel welcome.
I work in harsh groups: I don't feel welcome.

All groups teach me something important about me.

The only place where you belong, is in yourself.
There is no other place, that....
It grants you comfort, welcomeness, but does it remain?
It causes you discomfort, unwelcomeness, but do you have to stay?

What feels like home for a while, feels like moving forward another while.
Nothing in the world of changefulness, remains.

I know that Buddha taught that.
Knew that.
But: there is a difference between reading a one liner on a calendar full of wise men.
And: feeling the cold shower, of the warm bath, that it used to be.

I guess that people, who struggle with welcomeness and unwelcomeness,
should understand, that there is no place like home.
I mean: 'no' place like home.
There is no such a place.
Or: there is no 'place' in general.
Time and place don't exist.

There are constellations, which make you feel like home or not.
You click in or not.
The function of them all is to nourish you and kick some ass, because you need to move forward.
Or to discomfort you, so that outside the comfort zone, you start to grow and deepen out as a person.

There is no such place where you belong,
but you.

Godaya

Photo's by Ine XII

To be Continued...

It's been a while since I wrote.
The reason why..?

I am going through different phases.
More glimpses of the real me come to surface.
They are quite fragile.
They also involve my work.

Since a week or something,
I am re-united with more happiness.
I say re-united, because I was always guided with a basic positivity.
A basic trust.

Then I lost it for some time.
I didn't recognise me in what I had become.
But now the positivity comes back,
from the inside out.

The heart opens really every once in a while.
Sometimes it closes and I keep it for myself.

In work a lot is changing. I guess in a month or more,
I am doing different stuff....
Little glimpses already show...
It's the same same, but then by far more authentic.

Since some time, I am fighting expectations of the outside world.
I don't want to be part of it.
But I know, that I will only find happiness and salvation,
when this outside world is included.

Feeling the natural flow, despite all the outside world expectations.
Trusting on a deeper walk of life, without instant reaction.

At this moment, I am more heading towards the Buddha,
than towards....I don't know if it is home. But it was a missing link.

To be Continued...

Godaya

Workshops

For Serious Request there will be two donation based workshops at Yoga Club Mijdrecht
at December 12th and December 13th. The donations will be offered totally to 'Het Rode Kruis'.

December 12th: Meditation, Mindfulness and Relaxation by Godaya at 10.30-12.00.
December 13th: Yin Yoga by Marloes Winkel at 12.30-14.00.

Hope to see you there. More information, visit my website: www.godaya.me

To Godaya XI

Dear Godaya,

For all people, who tend to give up,

Tonny:

From the Talmud

You can be the first note in a song,

so that all boundaries are gone,

don't be afraid

even if the note is false

You can be the first spark for a fire

which melts all weapons into ploughs

don't be afraid

even if you are wounded by the wind

You can be the first grain in the field

which will fill all hands with bread

don't be afraid

even if the land is full of rocks

You can be the first drop of a Source

which sings songs of life in the desert

don't be afraid

even when the cloud is still silent

You can be the first step for a dance

which leads all feet towards Him

don't be afraid

even if your foot is stumbling 

And then this...

When you have believed in people

which let you down: keep on believing.

When you hoped for a miracle,

which did not happen: keep on hoping.

When you wanted to leave a trace of love,

but were despised, even continue to love.

When you dreamed and then awaken,

keep on dreaming until the morning!

Ine's Book

Ine's book is worth seeing/buying. Over 365 pics and illustrations. See link
Godaya

http://www.boekenbestellen.nl/boek/let-the-picture-get-you-by-ine/15465http://www.boekenbestellen.nl/boek/let-the-picture-get-you-by-ine/15465

To Godaya X

 

Dear Godaya,

I am curious about you answer.
I don't like it that I visit your site to see it empty again.
Is that the case with more people? Being curious... or is it my dependency? of ...?
Do I wait too much for people? Waiting? Why do I wait? Is it because I don't wanna go? Is it, because I should go myself.... or is it time that others will follow me? That I show people what's inside of me?
That I don't identify with you, with someone else, but...go!?
Why does it scare me so much?
Not waiting for someone to follow. Go!? Saying 'yes' to whatever calls you.
It's so scary.

Tonny