Motherhoodism

I dodn't know when I became a yogi.
It went through stages.

Now I am a mother and a yogi.
It goes through stages.

The motherhood grounds my yoginess.
It brings me back to normal life.

Both are kind of strong.
One is not better than the other.

But both are also rather different.
Where lies the nuance?

I could never imagine that my working life,
step by step became more of a yogi-kind-of-life.

It probably suits me, as it is granted more and more
every day, to do so.

I am more a yoga practitioner and teacher, than I was before,
when I had a yoga school.

But then motherhood. It is so different.
Alone-someness becomes three-someness.

Motherhood takes all the romanticism of the yoga life away,
but also puts a new one into place.

It is because the motherhood that the yogi life has become
'real'. It is not plastic fantastic. It has become an urge and
a necessity, to support the family life.

What is my religion? Yogism or Motherhoodism?
I do yoga to support motherhood.
I don't do motherhood to support yoga.

So the motherhood is the ultimate goal and the yoga is a way?
It ain't the other way around.
Motherhood is per se.

Since I don't believe in God,
I guess that Motherhoodism is my sincere belief.
Yoga is the vehicle.
God is just the fuel.

Godaya

Drawing without the Lines.

In the end, you must be and move quite autonomously.
Mixing powers and interrelations are all in the non-essence a powerplay.
In the essence they are love, but mostly there ain't no essence in the interrelationship between people.
This lesson is quite a tough cookie, I mean in real life, not in a matter of speaking.

At this moment, there is an urge to move quite autonomously,
but it ain't yet allowed. I have to learn about interrelationships first.
I must first totally click in and so therefore I give myself away many times,
to learn about the different relationships of ownership.

I am owned on the non-essential level.
But on the essential level, a me originates, which can't be owned.
Therefore the ownership (by others) is obviously necessary, before
the non-ownership has a meaning of itself.
Not because I say so, but because others do.

In the interrelationships of owner-ship and non-ownership,
I learn about all kinds of powers, which make me realise,
I don't wanna be owned at all.

Clicking into society, means undoing all kinds of expectations, desires, wishes
and all that. It means dying the self.
And once the self has died,
it starts to revive like a phoenix.

Not because I say so,
but because the phoenix arises, who doesn't know that he is a phoenix
and can't do otherwise.

Being is like a drawing without the lines.

Godaya

To Godaya II

Hi Godaya,

God Is Darwin.

You could also say: when you are hardened (or you also might say: hearted), you are God.

Science therefore is God.

This morning, I heard on the radio: many scientists were 'God-seekers'.

For me there is no difference between the 'God-theory' and the 'Darwin-theory'.

How lovely, the sun shines this morning!

Tonny.

To become the Darwin.

Since I have to survive in the real world,
I am getting deeper into the world of advertisement.

I guess this is so, to un-do it.

There is a duality in G.
On one hand, you feel, and it is said: 'This is not the world of G'.
But on the other hand, you have no other choice than to come along.
So it feels like double .... (4 letter word).

For a long time, I tried to stay out of this.
But this is only possible, when you are a trillionaire.
The only thing I have is a million dollar cornflakes.

Yesterday, I watched the movie Jobs with M.
I already saw it in the plane, but anyways....
The funny thing was: M didn't know who Jobs was, although he uses everything from ..... (5 letter word).
At least there are some people who stay blank.

Being good in business, having a nose for things that are unique and usable, and being convinced of it, no matter what, brings you further in this world.

Making an existence is the same as surviving.
1. You have to be good at what you do.
2. You have to make it unique and usable to the consumer.
3. And you have to stand your ground, no matter what,
and then you make a chance.

Then there is the message, which is about advertisement.
But I guess that first the former conditions count, otherwise all is only based upon a beautiful lie.
What I saw at Jobs is that he not only was good in what he did, but that he also stood his ground at the moments that he was challenged. The world was tough, but he was tougher. Through the reality of G, I learn now that this tough-tougher-toughest is somehow what counts in the people's world, although idealism tries to convince us otherwise.

In G. or in real life, the first 3 are already quite difficult to attain and perfection.
1. What is good? It is a relative definition and who then is better? Or, when is something good enough? - Can you make a living out of it?
2. Unique and usable - is something you work on all the time. - Does the audience understand what you do and does it improve a situation? - you only know when the consumer uses and likes it.
3. Real life is hard, when it comes to standing your ground.

For the first I already tested things for years and for the second I also experienced this was functioning. The only thing was how to make a useful message towards the public. How to sell the unseen world?

For me the latest was very difficult in the last two years and for my whole life. I had to overcome culture difference of movement, not being welcome any longer in the city, but also not being welcome in the Landscape, being pregnant and give labor, a body which was changing all the time and could not be 100% unconditional trustworthy, financial struggle because of my bodily lack and some influential people, that didn't like me swimming in the same water, that made me feel afraid to go as a consequence. Being good or sufficient at 1 or 2 is not enough for the world that we live in.

Through the process, I found out that all the outer struggle is about inner processes and to make more room within your own body and energy. The more room you get on the inside, the more you start to realise that it is just a matter of Darwin and that concurrence exists in the world of Darwin, but not in the world of G. I guess a little that the story of the scorpio and being no longer afraid of its defence mechanism was a token, that I am a bit on the right track. You have to not only understand the Darwin, you have to become the Darwin.

Not there yet....but understanding more of the direction.

When you are tough enough for the Darwin, you don't need the advertisement.

Godaya

To Godaya I

Reaction on yesterday by Tonny:

Hi Godaya,

 

Since yesterday, I see advertisement appearing at your blog. I was just asked the question: 'do you feel comfortable with the effect of what money does to you?' And: 'designing great visualisations'. My money does not so much for me, as I don't have any. The second is nice, as I do have great visualisations. Design means 'giving form to', doesn't it? So that is true for me, as I just prayed a few days ago to Rens or God, whether...: he could give me the power to give form to my power........... I was just looking what was next at the blog...;). There are two actually. One is about money again. The other is nice again. It says: Visual analysis Best practices. And below: Guidebook. 'Nice huh?' You use oracle cards. I just make use of your blog, haha. And... the greatest visions or ideas are off course nothing without the experience. Shall I then ask for advice to my Guidebook? It's only that that Guide or guide doesn't give an answer. Well, Tonny, the answer is given: Best Practices. O, I love life! Really.

Have a nice day! Big hug to your child. 

Tonny

And then she wrote:

Haha! And it now shows shoes of .... (I don't call any names). Haha.

Shoes, as I have to GO!

In the middle of the Jungle

I was walking in the Landscape yesterday, and at the corner of the garden
and the street, there was a scorpio.
It opened itself, probably out of defence,
but I was not afraid.
I wanted to make a picture as a prove, that I really saw it.

It is a little bit surreal, as I am living in the landscape with grass and cows and birds
and nothing.

I didn't know at first: is it a crab, is it a lobster or a scorpio?
But crabs are hamburger alike and they walk sidewards.
Lobsters are way bigger, and almost don't fit a sauce pan.
This one had a tail.

I am in the middle of the jungle in the Landscape.

There were two ways to look at the same picture:

You should be afraid of it, but I was not and therefore it was afraid of me.
Then there was another layer: what a beautiful encounter.
How often does this happen?
I wanted to share this moment with a participant on the street,
but it didn't feel like I had to say it. It was more of a symbolism.

Some time later that night, I was asking myself another question.
And I drew a card. It said: 'look for a sign'.
I couldn't make up one, but then I recalled my encounter with the scorpio.
I totally had forgotten it.

And this is the weird thing about G:
When you heal, it happens naturally. It happens so naturally,
you forgot that it healed.
When you meet a scorpio in the middle of the Landscape, it happens
so naturally, you forgot that it happened.

A week ago, something broke out: The Being overcame the non-being.

The world of G is sometimes a jungle.
Where is the sea?

Godaya

The Un-Facebook.

By doing it, the story originates.
You do something, it makes you into a process.
Did you know that most things are done, or operated on the subconscious level?

When the awareness arises and grows, this unconscious piece becomes conscious.
Mostly it hurts. The bigger truth hurts.

The hurt has to do with growing, with admitting that things are totally different
than you might have expected.

But it also shows the intention of the other, who doesn't even know what the intention is.
There 'is' no intention and meanwhile, there is, without knowing as the effect is the effect.

Sometimes I use words, which are rather neutral.
And then I start to feel: it is not my words, that count, but people do always make
their own story out of it.

The ultimate Babylon.

It doesn't matter.

On the meantime:

It is typically God, or human, that one day I write about the Landscape.
And then the second day the opposite arises. Nothing becomes something.

Did you know, that I am actually integrating more into the Landscape, thanks
to the powerful gift of yoga?

Another would say: thanks to the powerful gift of God.

I don't any longer know, who to thank.

When words aren't sufficient to make one understand,
do some yoga.

My blog is sort of the Un-Facebook.

Godaya