But that's Yoga

Sometimes the Landscape is internal, sometimes the Landscape is external.
Both are useful for the process of ....

More yoga is coming into my life. I had to come to a definition or so...
The scope of yoga is quite huge. There are many different forms and sorts,
but there is only one life, one Soul and one G.

The super spiritual yoga, which is also part of me, also intertwines with
a more work-out sportschool yoga, which is also part of me....

I was especially feeling: if there is no form, or if there are all forms, then what
is the essence, without betraying yourself or the public?

It's a journey, but I am happy to provide a great spectrum of everything, without
becoming absolute in 'one' thing.

A few days ago, I was called by an organisation to provide a yoga course, to people
who are coping with the difficulties of society. I already applied for this a long time
ago. And I was declined.

As I was also on the sensitive link of no more declinations, it was rather G-kind-a-like,
to first disappoint me with the declination (like half a year ago), and then let people
finding me, when the necessity was there (for them) and less for me.

But, I was happy to do it. And I figured out, or felt, how I was changed along the way.
First there was a need to do it. But also a false idealism to do it. The heart went open.
Then there was the declination. And there was pride and disappointment. But due to
circumstances along that half a year, I have been so changed, that not only I was happy
to do it, but there was also more ground to do it and a real feeling to do it.

There is the technical necessity, as now they need me. But there is also a more realistic
picture, of how such a thing is integrally, as when one is open in the Being, lots of
internal things are happening to. But I also feel that it will give some peace of mind to
be of use for the neighbourhood, where I always had the feeling of not fitting in.

Another proces took place during these last months. I was building up a group in a
place, also in the heart of ... I'd like the place to be and to work. This was immediately so.
As I started this in the middle of the holidays, it was commercially un-handy. But I kept
using the opportunity to build up stamina, and to go through all kinds of phases of the
changing the dessert into an oasis.

It was an enormous path of confrontation, but also building onto your existence, going
from no one, to any one, to someone, without the ego-stuff. For me it first had the function
of going to a different place, and find liberation in: that time and place don't matter.
But also had the function of being no one and transform this into anyone, and becoming
someone. This, by the process of technical 'doing', applied to the real world.

I was therefore very happy to hear, that people were satisfied and that I was earned to have
a second group there. It teaches me, that all little efforts help, but one must have stamina.

Then yesterday, I applied together with the little one. This was in a total different atmosphere.
I was going to teach, and the little one could come to get used to child-care-paradise. This
is new and a nice step to experience work besides all the practicalities over motherhood.
I am starting next week!

And more things are yet to come.....

At the same time I am building on Open Heart Yoga. Not only I am providing a workshop,
but also an open day (together with an action of a national spiritual newspaper) and then hopefully
a Open Heart Yoga Teacher education. This is provided in a place in the heart of..., where I am
provided the path of trial and error: we just see, what originates and how it works out. Knowing
that every step is useful of becoming someone out of anyone out of no one.

In these last few months, I learned, that you must work to become existent. I learned that work
must be given. I learned that work is a gift. Effort is necessary, to build a construction to be able
to work.

We were given the obligation to work. Obligation doesn't sound nice. Yet, it is for a reason.
But when you are really working from inner strength, one must earn the obligation. How I state
it now, it sounds a little opposite from the modern western view of life.

But that's Yoga.



Godaya

Open Heart Yoga book available through website: www.godaya.me
Open Heart Yoga workshop: September 13th (De Ronde Venen).
Open Heart Yoga open evening for the YTT: September 16th (Zeist).
Open Heart Yoga Yoga Teacher/Coach Training: September 23rd onwards (Zeist).